On Depression

The black dog nips at my heels, never really going away. Sometimes it towers, casting its shadow over me. Sometimes it’s a docile puppy, never really rearing it’s head until something stirs it. And it takes such a massive effort to keep it at bay. So much effort. And I am still afraid to let people know that that black dog follows me.
I wrote the above paragraph in October 2009. It has been almost six years.
It has been a journey, and I have done quite well lately. Being depressed is not a choice, but doing something about it is – I wrote this a while ago under one of my to-do-self-help lists, and I’ve taken my own advice lately.
Catching up with friends, making the effort to go out and not be so negative. Opening up.
Coming out of the closet (metaphorically speaking – coming out regarding my writing and my depression). All these things have helped quite a bit.
I am doing better. I feel myself slipping again, but I know that it will get better, because I have seen the light.

On Blogging

You know what I miss about blogging? Like pure old school blogging?
People don’t tell stories about their lives anymore.
Everything is now staged and polished before being vetted and put online on a blog. There’s no longer that authenticity, that relatability that telling a story about your deepest thoughts, fears and dreams provides.
It’s no longer safe to be yourself, flaws and all.
And we retreat. Just like I did before.
Years ago, I ran away. I stopped blogging. I stopped tweeting (not like I really started anyway). I stopped posting to DeviantArt and Fictionpress. I died online.
That was when my life was going up in smoke, and sometimes spectacular flames around me, and someone had to die. That someone was me, metaphorically, of course.
I still live, but I am just a husk. I still write, but I’m not as prolific as I once was. I am finding my way again, but there is so much charred ruin in my wake that I am afraid to rise up and live again.

Up, up and away!

The Supergirl trailer is out, and it is awesome, and I am so hyped for it. Sure there are complaints (on reddit already) about the tone is so dorky/chick flicky, and about the happy poppy music that young girls. THAT’S BECAUSE SUPERGIRL IS A YOUNG GIRL!

I am loving every single bit of the trailer.

This is the superheroine I (and maybe even others) have been waiting for. Continue reading “Up, up and away!”

Quick book review – books read in 2014

I originally posted this as a page on the website, but given the transient nature of posts and my irregular reading schedule, I figured this would be better republished as a blog post, with the main quick reviews page listing these posts.

Instead of a lengthy review, I’m trailing out a quick review system for the books I’ve read: Continue reading “Quick book review – books read in 2014″